I decided that to successfully (and transparently) work on #20, I need to have a starting point to measure my success against. What could possibly be a better way to start the week than stepping on the scales? So on Monday morning, up on the scales I went. And, after seeing the #'s displayed in all of their flashing digital glory, I concluded that Mondays weren't the best day to start a weigh loss journey. Many a weight loss failure story began with a Monday, SO I should change things up again and pick another day. I made attempts on Tuesday, on Wednesday, and on Thursday. I took Friday off (it seemed like a good thing to do) and tried weighing myself again today. And you guessed it nothing changed, the same #'s flashing in my face. I seriously need a new scale--something kinder, without harsh digital light, and absolutely NO flashing.
Today, on February 27, 2010 I weigh exactly 188.2 lbs. God I hate writing those numbers down. And, I am sure you can imagine that taking the picture wasn't much fun either. It seemed more manageable to avoided the scale and keep my secret. But, that wasn't really working for me. I have a million questions and excuses of how I got to this point. And, as of today I am letting go of both. No more excuses, 15lbs here I come!
To help me put things in perspective, I did a bit of research about 15 lbs and learned that:
- Snow weighs 15 lbs per cubic foot.
- Meryl Streep had to put on 15 lbs to play Julia Child in the movie Julie & Julia.
- The Beer Barrel Belly Buster burger, served at Denny's Beer Barrel Pub in Clearfield, PA weighs in at 15 lbs.
- The largest facial tumor in the world was recorded at 15lbs. THAT is just plain gross.
To help me lose my 15 lbs I am creating the perfect exercise/yoga sanctuary (#12). I am SO excited about this space. It's not in the corner of a room or something you have to move furniture around to be able to use. It is a real, bona fide, dedicated workout room and construction should be completed in the next few weeks. I have been dreaming about this space for years. A space that is all mine.
My weight has been an issue the past 15 years. A roller coaster of ups and downs reflecting the significant milestones and tragedies of my life. A mirror into the deepest parts of myself and my fears of openness. So, how can I start conquering those fears...
Blogging about my weight for 1.67 billion internet users (Wikipedia, June 2009) to access might be a good start?